Stone

The Light of Consciousness wants To Be Found

Losing something or someone you’ve treasured is tough business. It robs of a part of your life. Yet there is also this other aspect, that losing clears out space that can be filled by something new, something yet unknown to you.

Life is the school of hard knocks, or at least it likely can be. The path can be confusing up until that point when you realize that you’ve been looking in the wrong direction all that time. And what you’ve been looking is already here in your hand.

Chapters:

• 00:00:00 Intro
• 00:00:26 Stone
• 00:02:32 A Song of Heartbreak and Growth
• 00:09:11 Stone (Remix)
• 00:12:43 Outro

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Transcript

Stone

I wished a stone
And found some wood
It looked so pleasant
It smelled so good

I loved my hands to run its grain
That piece of wood felt quite insane

We took a ride
I loved it hard
We’re getting stoned
It broke apart
It pierced my heart
Insanely tart
All my love insane in vain

So broken was I
Sank to the ground
Tears in the dirt
Pain clawed the mud

Threw it with raging cries
Prayed oh so many whys
Sobbed till my sobbing’s dry

Dirty stone found in my hand
Didn’t like it
It soiled my hand
I couldn’t find no woody grooves
Just stony roughness
So little smooth

It rested in my hand
A cool persistence
That would withstand

I bounced it hard
Broke not apart

Leaned against it
It would not move

Was what it was
Here in my hand
I found a stone
Now understand

©️ Laughing Brook/Peter Müller 2026

A Song of Heartbreak and Growth

The world is full of silly love songs. Or, love songs of every kind, that is. That moment when you look at someone and it’s just too good to be true, can’t take my eyes off of you. Bang goes the drum, out come the dancers, and you’re in love, and the show has begun. You just can’t help falling in love. And God only knows what I’d do without you.

But then, oh my, there are those other songs. You know, when love will tear us apart. When your lover should have come over, but now it’s just like doves cry. You say, don’t think twice it’s alright, but if you where honest you’d rather say: I can’t stand loosing you. And then, when you live in heartbreak hotel, you feel so lonely you could die.

When you really loved someone and opened up your heart to them, the end of such a love feels like dying indeed. And you ask yourself all those question, why and how could this have happened. You face pain and anger and regret. No doubt about it, letting go is serious business.

There’s is this supposedly Russian saying that goes like this: When God shuts a door for you, he opens a window. Which means that as one opportunity, one pathway closes, others open up. Hearing this proverb you might respond: Yeah, alright, but a door is wider than a window and easier to walk through, and you might still feel that loss has hit you harder than anything newly found that might compensate it is able to excite you. There is actually a large body of psychological and neurological studies concerning this inclination, and it has been dubbed loss aversion. As British writer C. S. Lewis has put it so neicely  , we are ”like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea.“ (From The Weight of Glory) We tend to cling to what we have, because we’re familiar with it, rather than daring to open up to something new.

But as life goes, that doesn’t always work out.

There is a magic in losses and the reorientation they require from us. We might end up with something that is even better than what we’ve lost. There’s this ingenious song by Leo Kottke named Pamela Brown, in which he sings about his teenage love and how she had dissed him back in the day for a guy with a bigger truck. Because of this, Kottke became a musician, saw the world and had an exciting life – while he could have driven their kids to kindergarten and lived that suburban life hadn’t Pamela dumped him. „I guess I owe it all to Pamela Brown“ he cheerfully sings. Now that’s a different perspective to look at losses and blows in your life!

Yet, as with all losses and blows, chances are much higher for a better outcome – one, in which you have grown and expanded who you are and come out stronger and more yourself from such a crisis – when you dare to really face it and look at what went wrong, and what was good, for that matter. There is a reward in facing yourself in the mirror of life’s ups and downs and making use of those lessons to learn and to grow, rather than just responding by blaming others and hiding in the comfortable slum of being a victim. 

In doing so, an ever so slight change occurs that you may not even notice at first. Slowly but surely, though, you will gain something that you didn’t even dare to dream it might be true. As the path expands with every hard and easy lesson you’ve learned, with every challenge you’ve managed, the horizon widens to a larger, more complete and balanced view. And you will develop quite naturally into this much larger, richer, livelier version of yourself.  Within yourself and likely also outside yourself you’ve found something that is good and so much better than what you’ve had. A new place you might call home, one that is more authentic than what you had before.

So remember: You can’t always get what you want, but if you try some time, you may just get what you need.

Outro:

If this episode has spoken to you and you would like to pursue this direction of transformation a little further, you might enjoy listening to episode 17, Thru That Darkest Door, and episode 2, Light So Small. Those episodes are viewing the path you are on from different perspectives. And if your bold, listen to episode 13, Sailing The Dark Sea. And if you’re even bolder, join me in February 27 in Brazil for the Sacred Sensuality Retreat. This is a ten day retreat that is all about becoming a fuller and more alive version of yourself through the path of your senses. You can find a link in the show notes.

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My name is Laughing Brook, I am a poet, dancer, mystic, nature coach and man whisperer.  Thank you for listening, and – keep on flowing, bumping and jumping with the stream of life.